Seriously, I’m sick of hearing that question.
To those of you who haven’t read my previous posts: I’m currently receiving Universal Credit, which, to some people, means I’m stealing your hard-earned money.
Trust me, I feel physically sick at the thought of it. Really, I do.
I’m the kind of person that has to be occupied. There’s rarely any moment in most days where I don’t want to be doing something. Even writing this blog-post allows me to feel somewhat productive. I despise sitting around, strolling through the internet doing nothing. I just don’t see the point.
Now, going back to the main point of this post – Yes, I’m being given money for doing nothing. Well, a small amount of money that doesn’t even support living for the majority of days, but it keeps me alive. But what a lot of people don’t understand is that everything is not as it seems.
In my last role as an administrator, I didn’t pass my probation. I simply wasn’t the role for me; I was bored, feeling as though I had the potential to do something grater and more productive, and this sadly reflected on my work. Now, I can hear what you’re saying, “but it’s a job, stop being ungrateful!”. Believe me, if I’d have kept that job if I could have.
Within the space of a few months, everything fell apart for me: I broke up with my partner, who I still miss dearly, I lost my job, I had to stop driving my car, I couldn’t afford to travel to interviews, hell, I couldn’t even afford to travel to the doctors to pick up my inhalers for my asthma. I fucked up.
The struggle with finding a new job after being dismissed is that a lot of employers are quick to assume that an individual is untrustworthy once they have been dismissed from a single role. I’m a hard worker, I put effort into my work to ensure I have a future, and just because I made a tiny slip up – just like everyone else has done – doesn’t mean I’m destined to be a failure for the rest of my life. I think people are just too quick to judge, and I’m sure you understand what I mean by that.
If you’ve ever struggled to make ends meet at the end of each month (or sometimes even at the beginning), then I’m sure you can understand the situation I’m in. I have been lucky enough to have family who ensure I eat enough to keep me alive, but I’m 21 years of age, I shouldn’t have to be relying on others to care for me. Is that wrong to think? Sometimes I reject the help just so I don’t appear to be weak, which has caused me to be ill on more than one occasion. Perhaps I need to swallow my pride a little more.
It kills me when people assume that I’m on Universal Credit just because I don’t want to work. Yes, there are a few people out there who would rather have tax payers pay for their food, water, electricity and unneeded items rather than go to work and have the satisfaction of spending their hard-earned money, but that doesn’t mean everyone is the same. Sometimes it’s just hard to get yourself back out there, sometimes confidence fails when an opportunity arrives.
Sometimes, we just need a little moral support.
Guys, if you’re one of those hard-working individuals who pays taxes that allows me to live, then I can’t thank you enough, because I don’t deserve it, but I promise that soon, hopefully, I can return the favour.