Life Is Selfish

There was a time, where I was alone,

Even though I smile today, the shards are still within.

Given time, I’d allow you to feel the sharp ends,

But don’t flatter yourself, I don’t fall freely.

You should well know, that life ain’t sweet.

Life is selfish,

So you have to be selfish yourself.

For time is not the giver of life,

But the dawn of the end that follows the knife.

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A Rogue Thing

This one is going to be a bit rough. Well, then again, when are they never?

I recently had a thought spiral; what is the point in living? The question isn’t regarding the thought of not seeing a point in living, but just a rogue ponder of why we are living. If we MUST earn a living in some form, solely to support ourselves and contribute to the forever failing government that rarely gives anything back, then what is the point?

Take a moment to question it. We go to school in order to develop our minds in order to gain the knowledge to eventually get a job, and once we get a job, we have must work until we are at an age where we are more than halfway through our lives (sometimes 3/4 through), and once we retire, we don’t have the time, nor the energy to do what we always wanted to do. And after that? Well, that’s where things become bleaker than ever.

For those lucky few who do the work they’d happily do for the rest of their lives – I’m happy for you. For the rest, I feel your pain. I get it, I truly do.

I’m only 21, so I probably haven’t reached the point in my life where I’m happy with what I’ve done, such as starting a family. Yet, there’s a darkening thought that resides within that lifestyle; yes, starting a family is probably one of the best things that could happen within your life, but it can easily be one of the worst after time. I’m not saying that it’s something to avoid, I’m simply stating that everything ends at some point, and once it does, despair and sorrow sinks in.

I’m happy to be alive. That’s one thing I’m sure of, but I’m not happy that my life will eventually come to an end. That’s the one thing I know I can never come to terms with, and I know I’m not alone. It’s natural to fear death, and the struggle I’ll forever face is finding a way to give my life a meaning, whether that be doing what I dream of doing, or allowing myself to smile knowing that I can make someone else smile, too.

 

A Bitter Coating

There’s a gentle calling that feels so natural,

But in the dimming embers lays a void of uncertainty.

A glimpse of a smile can send me into panic,

Yet a single moment can raise a thoughtless storm.

I could feel the smoke crawl across my skin,

Only to get burned as the light showed false hope.

The light was strong, promising, you could say,

But all things sweet have a bitter coating.

The End is Near – NaNo 2017

There’s less than 48 hours left of NaNoWriMo 2017, and I believe it’s time to reflect on the month.

I failed, the end.

Ok, so perhaps it’s a little harsh to say that I failed, because even though I haven’t managed to reach 50,000 (yet, maybe a miracle will happen), I’ve still began a story that I love, and will hopefully finish in the months to come. I believe it’s important to understand that success isn’t always the best thing to happen to you.

For those of you who have managed to reach 50k, well done, I hope you keep on writing! And for those who just couldn’t make it this year, don’t be too hard on yourself, you haven’t “failed”. Just because you fell a little behind doesn’t mean you haven’t done something productive.

The purpose of NaNoWriMo is to encourage you to write daily, the target is simply there to point out that a novel word-count is around that mark.

Now that the end is near, it’s time to think about what comes after. For me, I’ll be finishing my project, and then editing a novel I wrote last year, and because I participated in NaNo, I am in the mind set of writing everyday, and that’s what I think being a writer truly is, not just finishing a novel, but being devoted to setting time aside to write each day of the week, thinking about it every day, from the moment you wake.

This year may not have been your year, but perhaps the next one can.

Falling Behind?

NaNoWriMo is now well underway, and like many, I have fell victim to the usual distractions that this world has to offer… mainly Netflix…

I suspect that you’re behind by a larger margin than you anticipated? Don’t worry, when you break it down into statistics, it’s really not as awful as you assume.

I am currently at 10,213 words, which is over 6,000 words behind target, so, I found myself in a constant slump, telling myself that 30,000 words would be an acceptable achievement this year. Well, even though that is still an impressive number, it’s not the best I can do.

Try this little trick: write at least 4 sprints per day, for 20 minutes. That’s just one hour of out your day. Not long, right? Most of us assume that we must hammer the keyboard or page with so much effort, when really, 20 minutes at a time is all you really need.

In 20 minutes, I can write, on average, 600 words. 600 x 4 = 2400 words. Now, think about it this way; if you began with such a strategy, you’d have written 50,000 words in just 20 days.

Nothing is so daunting when you break it down into basic numbers.

Now that we have that out of the way, the next step is getting motivated to write, yes? Well, try this little task:

Each morning, John Steinbeck would sit and gaze outside of his window for just 10 minutes, and he would write about what he saw. This warmed him up each morning, and encouraged him to work on something different after those 10 minutes had passed.

I want you to try that each morning for the month of November. Just 10 minutes. See how it makes you feel.

Good luck with your novels. I’d love to chat with some of you about the experience!

 

Writing Challenge

Ahead of NaNoWriMo, I’ve decided to create some practices that may help you push for that daunting 50,000 word mark.

At times, when I’m writing my novel, I struggle with specific events in which a character react in a certain way. I often find that the dialogue between multiple characters can merge into one, as though it were the same person speaking. Developing a thought process is key to a strong character that your reader can learn to adore (even if it’s an antagonist).

So, here’s a little challenge that can help you through:

I want you to write about your character in the process of dying. Now, I don’t want you to set the scene, or describe some event in which your character meets their final fullstop, no, I want you to simply writing about their thought process: what are they thinking? Who are they thinking of? Are they afraid, do they believe in an afterlife?

This method has helped me get the best out of my characters, as it encouraged me to understand how they would speak and react in different situations.

 

I hope this helps you, and I’d love to read what some of you wrote! (I’ll be happy to publish anyone’s work on my website if they wish).

Good luck for next month!Shield-Nano-Side-Blue-Brown-RGB-HiRes