Nothing feels right,
My clothes feel like skin that shouldn’t be there.
The air feels intrusive like microscopic invaders,
Nothing feels right.
I don’t want to open my eyes and see my life broken into hours,
Nor do I want to fall asleep and enter a new world with the same horrors.
Today is a new day, only with added memories,
And even those don’t feel like my own.
A life is like a game of Chess, but with real hearts of brave,
There may be sacrifice, but we all play to win.
No selfless act is truly heartfelt,
No move is always clever.
But the one thing that defines us all,
Is the will to endeavour
Arms open wide, I embrace the rain,
The cold air feels like death in motion.
I am vulnerable, but I am brave,
But I’m not ready for the end.
I love the sky and everything beneath,
Even though there’s decay to be seen.
There’s treasures to be found, if you know where to look,
And there’s more than just gold worth holding on to.
Look at me as you wish, but know one thing,
Try as you may, but you can’t cut me down.
What burns the most is not the flame,
But the dark scars left behind.
The singe from life is a cunning pain,
Yet I bare it.
I’d rather touch a Viper’s fang,
As opposed to being left abandoned.
I’d drink life’s venom as easily as water,
If it meant I’d never feel the heat again.
I’ll fight the flame if I have to,
I’ll feel the burn upon my skin.
I know it’ll hurt, but it must be done,
In order for me to make it through.
It may be tough, and I could easily fall,
But my final thoughts will be of your lips.
I’ll rage through the storm just to hear you breathe,
But I shan’t shed a tear if it is all for nothing.
I can taste the pain right on your tongue,
And for just a moment, my heart feels numb.
I know you’re afraid, but I shan’t hide,
For a moment in time can change the tide.
I’ll take the heat if it means you’ll smile,
Only for you, I’ll walk that mile.
Even though the journey is far,
I’ll always guide you, wherever you are.
Know just this; you are not alone,
And tell yourself this; my heart is your home.
I see my eyes as young as they’ve ever been,
Just as the day when I came into this world.
I wasn’t rich, but I could breathe,
Sometimes that’s enough to keep you going.
I never had a mother’s love, nor a life blessed with grace,
But I had riches worth more than gold, I had people worth knowing.
Sit by my, close to the river bank,
Take a look at our reflection.
Take a moment to feel the air,
And remember what’s worth living for.
For time is not the giver of life,
But the dawn of the end that follows the knife.
Life is bitter and painful to hold,
Time is the bullet that ends the old.
Why are we here if all is lost?
Why are hurting, what is the cost?
Take me down if you feel you can’t win,
But promise me this, don’t blame me for your sin.
There’s a gentle calling that feels so natural,
But in the dimming embers lays a void of uncertainty.
A glimpse of a smile can send me into panic,
Yet a single moment can raise a thoughtless storm.
I could feel the smoke crawl across my skin,
Only to get burned as the light showed false hope.
The light was strong, promising, you could say,
But all things sweet have a bitter coating.
Each day I wake and feel a sadness,
It cuts me gently, yet it stings like a mourning.
I know time has passed, but nothing is the same,
Ever since you said goodbye, my chest has felt desolate.
It’s not your fault, I know it’s my own,
But I hate sleeping at night, just to wake to my own heartbeat.
Everything sends an echo through my hearts,
and it’s then when I can hear the tears calling me.
Raise me up, so I may fall,
At least, maybe, then I can feel human.
I fight the pain, yet it’s often too much,
But one day, I hope, it”s be nothing more than a scar.